I hate this.

I just royally fucked up my last audition of college.

Way to go out on a high note. And literally, a shrill, fucked up, wrong place, high note. You'd think that with a degree in musical theatre I'd be able to, at this point, walk in, sing 16 bars, own it, and leave. But, there are things I can't fix like, starting somewhere from two to three beats late, and on the wrong note, and then spent the rest of the song trying to get back there. And it's fine when everyone goes, "They all know how you sing." I mean, that's great, but in four months from now, no one will know me from shit, and I'll be just one more of millions fucking up their auditions until someday, somewhere it's not as bad as I thought it was and someone finally casts me. Or maybe that'll never happen, but as far as I know, right now, I'm mostly a fuck up.